He gives and takes away...

I had a wonderful night on 6th of April... I had dinner at KFC with my dear's mom! How funny is that? Haha.. She is really a nice person and I suggested that We (as in my dear and I) should spend more time with her mom.
Well.. I guess many a times in relationship, people just want it to be a "couple world" thing. Only the "boy and the girl" and shut the whole world off. I truly believe that is not the case, my stands are if I truly love her, then I should love those who love her too right? And let her spent more time to those who needs her more. Many people have a mindset that love is SELFISH!

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self‑seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Well... This is the true LOVE that I believe and the world that is trying to corrupt it.

Anyway... After dinner, we walked her mom to the control station and we then took a bus to head down to West Coast to enjoy some breeze from the sea. Then along the way I start talking about if Ah Pa ever take my life before I marry her, I would hope that she would find someone else who can look after her and stuff. Well things got just little bit depress, then I told her if that even happens then I would want her to say this... "He gives and takes away, but my heart still choose to say 'Blessed be Your Name'".

"And he said, “Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”" Job 1:21

This is my life, I was created for Him, in Him and through Him, whatever may comes, I am at His full disposal. So that I may be a testimony to Him and my deeds be a glorifying before His throne of Grace and Glory. For it is by Grace I came to know Him and for His Glory I may die to live with Him...

"For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21

So I told my dear that in my funeral, one of the song must be "Blessed be Your Name" Haha...

After everything, I send her near her house where I took bus after that and reach home, bathe and went down to buy some stuff so I can make brunch for her tomorrow, erm.. more like in a few hours time. Well I really love her and I promise to cook for her all the days of my life. As long as my hands are still working... I will cook!

Its really a interesting day... And I could not wait to see her in a few hours time!
Thank you LORD!

I ask Lord Father that You would give me the strength to go through today, I ask that would Your Spirit lead me in all ways of my life which is no longer mine for You have bought me for a price. A price that You have not hold back because of Your love for us, Abba Father I ask that I will be able to love Your people as the way You delight me to love. And above everything, I thank You for Katherine. The lover You place in my life so that through her, I can see the image of Christ in a physical world. Thank You Lord... I ask that Your will done on earth as it is in heavens. Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

The true leader (that i am not)

I have been taking a long time thinking... Am i the right leader for Christian Fellowship? Did they choose me due to the lack of members?
Well... I have many other commitments and becoming a Chairman for English Ministry only adds on to it. I guess that the reason for my doubts is that I feel that I am not caring enough for my members well being, they are my sheeps and the lest I could do for them is to keep track of their everyday life! I been asking myself, if I have even spent a few minutes praying for them? Did I even spend time having lunch or tea with them? If they are truly my sheeps as I have called them. Then why am I not caring enough for them?

"I will set shepherds over them who will care for them, and they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall any be missing, declares the Lord . " Jeremiah 23:4

I ask Lord let me be the shepherd, let me care for them so they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall any be missing. Lead me Lord, teach me Lord. For You are the True Shepherd, show me Your ways and I will follow... Amen...

One more week before school starts... I know it will not be easy, but by Faith and not by sight. I will follow the Lord of my life...


For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary