A really SICK dae...

Dear Blog...

Yesterday, I was feeling terrible... My whole body was aching, my head was really heavy and my breathing was straining. I was in a position that I thought I was going to die, but the thought that came to me was that if really my time is up and I am going to be called home, I would die in the arms I love. And that was what I did! I crawled for my bed to my bathroom, then from my house to KAP (King Albert Park) just to in on time to meet my beloved after her cell group. My journey there was tough. Many a time I felt that I would die on the bus, but when I reach KAP, I told myself that I am this close in seeing her, and even I use every single strength I have to climb that stairs I will. So I slowly, bit by bit, step by step make my way up the stairs and eventually sat down at a table where I could secretly look at her without her notice so that I would not disturb the cell. And I sat there for an hour.

Even siting there was hard cause I felt that breathing was difficult and my body was in pain. But I remained sited looking at her, soon one hour has pass and she called me. I told her I was at the table near her. Then I make my way towards her table, after dragging myself there, I greeted everyone there, as much as I wanted to look lively, I failed badly as my body was not helping much. Miko brought me a hot cup of Milo while asking me to look after myself. Then everyone in the cell group left and my dear and I went to cold storage to buy some medication and water for me. I actually wanted to go out as it was my off day but my dear insisted that I go home due to my fever.

My journey was a very tough one for Kat, as she tries to support me and carry my bag. She was asking why my bag was so heavy, I told her that I brought out admin stuff from camp as I cannot afford to slack even when I am sick. But soon I realised that I am in a terrible condition, and the bag that I brought in fact did nothing more then increasing the burden I am in now. I then somehow feels that I was a burden to her. But she gently hold me and make sure I am not feeling terrible in anyways. She then brought me home while I collapse on my bed.

She took a bowl of water and a towel and slowly wiping my body and forehead to cool down my temperature. Then I took medication and when back to sleep. Soon it was getting dark and I suddenly remembered that Kat has a party to go. When I asked her, she says that she cannot go to the party without worrying for me. She would rather stay to look after me. And she did...

She brought me dinner while I took a bath to cool myself down. After she came back and unpack the food, and place in front of me. I did not even eat 1/4 of it. I was feeling terrible and when back to sleep. While she cleans up and wash the bowl. I soon feel like throwing up and I rush to the toilet and throw up everything. Everything... Then my stomach start to have cramps and I was feeling terrible. As I crawl back to bed, I was gently been put back to sleep by Kat and soon she felt asleep too. I believed she was very tired as I was woken up by her snores (oops). Soon it was getting late and she has to home before her dad kill her. After opening the door for her, I went back to sleep.

Today I felt much better... ^.^ and I am going to church now before I am late... bye bye...

Abba Father, I thank You for your healing hands. But I truly thank you for the illness as well, when I see Your love through her. I sense that the fact that my illness was not the highlight of yesterday but Your love through her. I prayed Lord Father would you bless her in every ways and Lord... Make me the person who is deserving for her love Lord... As I seek Your face Lord, would you grant me peace in my heart, Father protect me today as I work... I ask that would you teach me Your ways that I may follow... Amen...

I really love you dear... I really do...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Updates so far....

Dear Blog,

I will have a break out on the topics that I will touch on...

1) Camps

1a) PCF
1b) NC
1c) Complete

2) Love life

3) Buddies



1a) Well PCF was a little different then the way we planned... our target was 30 people... we hit less then have after included the staff worker... We did not followed the timetable, everything was free flow, even worship! Well it was pretty interesting... The theme for the camp was "Me in the Big picture"... Mun Toh first started out teaching about how God's plan befall upon us, how magnificent is His will. Then the next day was Fuji teaching how our youth life can affect or change the society into the Big picture of God. But the lesson I brought home that day was neither of the teaching... I brought home something else, I realize that leadership hurts. There would be some point in time when even as leaders there would be quarrel and even miscommunication, but how we move on from there is what it really matters. It does not matter what was the topic, who was right or wrong, or even who started it first. But to look pass it and become friends again is tough but it is tougher to forget what has happen, even though we are alright now but the incident still haunts me until now...

1b) NC was even more interesting. As it was the first time I attended a camp without any games but having theory after theory, I dozen off a couple of time cause it was a bit dry. But over all it was still not bad. Maybe some of the teaching I could not fully accept but I respect him as someone who was given the authority to teach. The lesson I could bring home was the workshop Fuji taught (Well... I could have just hear it during CF). About reaching to the I pod generation...
The only thing I could bring home from Vinoth is that "Pastor should one day go up to the pulpit and say "I have nothing else to teach to you, unless you act upon what was taught last Sunday" then going up every Sunday teaching the church things that they would not do". And not to forget, it was the first time I went up the stage, facing 300 people and reading the Word of the Lord... ^.^ It was quite an experience...

1c) Complete... Coming in 1 week time... Well the committee is trying very hard to stick everything together in this short amount of time... Well... I told Fuji to form the committee in January but it was only form about 2 months ago during exam period. As more and more waves start crashing upon us, I prayed that may Ah Pa's grace fall upon us. As I look on the target of 80 people, I start to lose faith. As as Kat has said.. if we reach... if this and if that... my faith of reaching 60 could even be a problem... But nonetheless, I place my trust onto the hands of God...

2) It is coming to our 6th anniversary, and as I know back... Did I really make the right choice? Not that she is not the one... In every way she is and only is the one I love. Is just that I feel that I rush into relationship too soon. Well, I did not know her well enough, looking pass her flaws as they haunted me now and then (Not physical of course)... And how I failed times and again to be a good, responsible boy friend. Well, I love her for the love for God which now I wonder to myself, am I taking that love for God away from her? Well she seem thinking of me more that thinking of God. and even for myself, I have lost the passion as I first started out and well I hope that she would get me back on track. But instead she followed me along. I want her to feel that all she needs is God and not me, and the more when I ask her about this, the more her reason seems a bit off... Unless our relationship brings us closer to God, I believed we have failed to be a couple in Christ. Well many times and even in her mind (I heard from her) that giving up was a choice that pops up in our head. I feel that I need some time away to really see what went wrong to start the foundation again. But that is not possible... Throughout everything and even in the end if we did not make it... I would still say loving you was the a choice I never regret and never will...
well I have to see and pray for God strength in my life, as my doors start to open, the darker side of me will show but I pray that God would pour His mercy and love over us.
Now as each day draw closer, I hope that our love will be a pleasing living sacrifice to our Lord...
I love you baby dear...

3) I always believe that long lasting good friends are hard to find... It started off with 3 of us doing everything together, hanging out very most of the time. But as time moves much faster, we fell out of it. Slowly, we hardly talk... we hardly meet.. I believe I am at fault too, but tight schedule did not give me any flexibilities to meet up, but I am more willing to say OK when they call me out. I would cancel every event just to hang out with them... But now we hardly sit down and talk, we dun even see each other once in 2 weeks. I believe time has a better hold on us, and I always believe that there is a season in everything... The season for this relationship has come to a finale. It's time to move on... No looking back... No good byes... May the Lord bless you... my beloved buddies...

Abba Father, I thank You for today... I thank You for Your mercy and love. Even as I write this feelings I have, Lord would You still let Your spirit do Your work in my life... I ask Father this day that You will take on of me and use me according to Your pleasure... In Your name I asked... Amen...

A shining star, in the mist of stars

Dear Blog,

I write to you as a man looking for what cannot be found. The men whom I entrusted failed me, long have I have walked with them, journey with them, fought with them and eat with them. Long have I looked for leaders who will commit their life to the commandments of the Lord. In times of peace and rest, they prove worthy. But in times of help and need, their rescued was slowed and reluctanted.

My enemies laughed and mocked me. Their words are like a thousand arrows piercing me, and I am as one who was being sent to be slaughtered. Their tongues are evil, their language are venomous.

As I seek the counsel of my Lord, I cried out

"My God, my God, where are the leaders that You appointed? Where are the leaders that You anointed? To whom may I seek? To whom may I trust?"

I am despair, for my livning leaders are as good as those who are dead.
My spirit is downcast.

And there before me, were a shining star, in mist of dead stars. Her name was pledge, pledge to the God Almighty. She was with me at the start of my birth, and through my journey of life, she was there. Yet I took no notice of her in the mist of confusion, belittle her, I did.

But she rised up to the called of my distressed, even if I do not notice. She stand firm in her actions and leadership. She rised above all my leaders, for her heart is for the people and her mind is of God.

Let her youth not be taken lightly, for it is written:

“I am young in years,and you are aged;therefore I was timid and afraidto declare my opinion to you.
“I said, ‘Let days speak,and many years teach wisdom.’
“But it is the spirit in man,the breath of the Almighty, that makes him understand.
“It is not the old who are wise,nor the aged who understand what is right."
~Job 32:6 - 8

I am proud of her, like a father to a child.
She has mature in spirituality and understanding in the glory of our Father in heaven.
I found my strength once more, my spirit is renew like a fresh water that burst from the ground.
And I raised my voice to praise His name! In His glory may I dwell...

Then enemies have fled, without a trace, without a trail.
The victory is mine once more...
To the glory of the risen King!

Abba Father, I thank You for leaders in Christian Fellowship. Both true leaders and acting leaders. Lord, I ask in many ways that would You pour down Your blessing upon them. Lord let them dwell in Your mercy and grace. May Your love be upon them this day until You call them home... And Lord I thank You for the leader whom have Your heart, even in her studies and work by You pour down Your double portion of blessing and gifts. I pray Lord that she would commit herself in Your perfect hands, just as the name says "a vow in God". So Lord bless all leaders in Christian Fellowship. In Your name I ask... AMEN...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Trusting, Believing and Knowing

Dear Blog,

I write to you at this moment in the mist of War that is raging in my heart. Surrounded by my vicious enemies, the thunderous sound of their foot steps, the loud and mighty clanks on their shield and the powerful battle cry that comes out from their mouth!

"Where is your people whom you trust!? Do they not fail you!?"
"Where then is your God of Salvation!? Did you not fail Him!?"

My heart was filled with pained, my body ached. My eyes were tired from the tears that flowed like a river from endless nights. My lips are dried and painful cracks are found on them. My spirit is weak and My soul is diminished.

For I was lost and my hope was nowhere found. The taste of victory I have waited too long...

Then comes a lady as pure as the driven snow, her name was pure and so was her heart. The beauty of her eyes bring a fire in my heart, that was warm and comforting, I felt alive as more...

In her hands hold a book, to a chapter she shows that her Lord has commanded...

"My Refuge and My Fortress

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.

I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,my God, in whom I trust.”

For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowlerand from the deadly pestilence.

He will cover you with his pinions,and under his wings you will find refuge;his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.

You will not fear the terror of the night,nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness,nor the destruction that wastes at noonday.

A thousand may fall at your side,ten thousand at your right hand,but it will not come near you.

You will only look with your eyesand see the recompense of the wicked.

Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place—the Most High, who is my refuge
no evil shall be allowed to befall you,no plague come near your tent.

For he will command his angels concerning youto guard you in all your ways.

On their hands they will bear you up,lest you strike your foot against a stone.

You will tread on the lion and the adder;the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot.

“Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;I will protect him, because he knows my name.

When he calls to me, I will answer him;I will be with him in trouble;I will rescue him and honor him.

With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”
~Psalm 91

My spirit was strengthen and My soul was lifted high. I stood before the gate, looked far and wide. I am surrounded by ten thousand legions of enemies and I am only but one.

Even so, I no longer fear. For the one whom I loved and loved me have came and endanger herself in the presence of my enemies to heed my called of help. I believed and know that more are on their way to respond to my distressed.
But moreover I trust in my GOD THE ROCK OF MY SALVATION! In whom i choose abided...

I thank You Abba Father, even as for today, this may be as real as it gets. That I am constantly been drag into spiritual warfare, and many a times I lose myself. I ask Lord that would You guide me, would You close my ears if needed to, close my eyes if needed to and hold my mouth if needed to. I ask Lord even as I struggle with this, I pray that would You lighten Kat's burden. May You be gentle on her that even if the devil whom still have control of me tries to hurt her. Lord I pray, do what You must to stop me to lay a scar on her or in her. and Lord I do not know when and how to destroy the devil in me, I ask Abba Father would you help me... Help me please... I ask all these in the name of Jesus... AMEN...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

The unfoRgiviNG SUN & the Lol~man~ticks (Romantic) niTez

Yup you got me right... "THE UNFORGIVING SUN" the shine its blazing heat onto my beautiful body... And I got badly burn.. *OUCH*

“They shall hunger no more, neither thirst anymore;the sun shall not strike them,nor any scorching heat." Revelation 7:16

HOw I hope for this day... =D

My dear and I went to Sentosa yesterday to have a wonderful retreat/rest/relax day. It was pretty nice though. The beach, the strong breeze, the salty sea water, my dear and not to forget the BLAZING HOT SUN. Haha...

When I woke up in the morning looking at the sky filled with clouds, I feared that the heavens will open up its gate and pour down the showers of blessing. So while I was bathing, I asked Ah Pa to give us a good weather when there is strong sun. YUp, He gave it to me... Haha...

We met about 0945am at harbor front bus interchange, had our breakfast then we head off to Tanjong Beach in Sentosa.

We swim until early evening and we when for dinner followed by watching "Songs of the Sea". My favourable part of the show was the "lady of the light" its when the laser beam shine across the sky. It gives a transparent celling/roofing kind of give, I was mesmerized.

To end of the night, we strolled on the 120-metre-long Gaudi-inspired mosaic walkway also know as the "Merlion Walk" and soon after we walked to Mount Imbiah.

Well, I enjoyed my day in the embrace of my dear.. Opps>>> Haha... but it was a time can we two come together to relax. Well I guess I am a pretty busy man, not that I want to be but things around me does not give me any leeway to have time for her.

I guess there are three main 'T' factors that plays a part in every relationship.

~Talk

~Touch

~Time

That goes to everyone out there! Be it a family or friend. This three Ts are equally important!

I thank You Father for yesterday, I thank you for You hold fast to us before we hold fast to You, You given us what is Good before we ask and when we asked You gave more then we could hold. Lord, You alone are beautiful and wonderful is Your name. How great are Your ways and how mighty are Your work. Lord I asked that would you hold us together on this path that our lives is and are for only one purpose, to glorify and magnify Your holy name. Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

20mins before lunch break ends & 3am in the morning

Hello... Its me again...



It is soon to be a month since i last wrote... Well many things had happen.. Both good and bad are included.



Met my dear's mum and her family on Mother's day dinner... I felt quite out of place there, but oh well.. haha... They are friendly and nice, but still I had an interesting time.. Haha...



Then met my dear's good friends aka "judges from hell". Yup and I got "suan" bully here and there... Haha... Girl power, I SUPPOSE...



Then tests and tests, assignment after assignment.. I can hardly breathe... But I guess these all these are pushing me to the limit and I need air to breathe and truly, it affect my relationship with my dear... Well I said a few mean things.. OK LA... I was been very mean to her and she teared...



I AM TRULY SORRY! PLEASE FORGIVE ME...



But I really love her and it is not my wish or enjoyment to make her cry... really!

Anyway... I hope that throughout everything you would still love me the same way as I do. And before Ah Pa says anything, I would want to hold your hand and walk on this path.. :)

I thank You Father for giving me such a thoughtful Soul~mate and even through hard times she would stay by my side to hug and hold me tight... Lord Father, what can I do to thank You? What can I say to thank You? Lord, You are good, Your ways are good, Your love is good and You are AWESOME! I asked Abba Father, may I walk and live in your statues all the day of my life. May you give me a pure heart that I may seek you. May you bless my dear that she would bless people around her as well.. All these I asked in no other name...
Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Tring m3

Hello... its been awhile since i wrote...

I have been really busy these few weeks trying to get a hold of the life in school, work, friends, ministry... Well I guess it not easy for me to work 7 days a week without stopping. Oh wells...

Life have been really busy... I shared my testimonial last Wednesday, well if I can grade myself, I would give it a 7/10. Ha ha... The theme is "more than conquerors" taken from

Romans 8: 37 ~
“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”

Well I brought across a fact that even if God did not change the circumstances, we shall still hold on to the promises that God have given us.

And followed by a few little things that came by... FYP (Final Year Project) is taking a lot of my time and I have to sacrifice ministry of it. (Well I love ministry more than any other thing) So I was pretty sad even if I do not seems like it.

Well been so tied down by everything makes me too tired to do anything in the night. Usually 9pm and later i would feel the tiredness and I feels like I need a bed to lie down for the day. Well this tiredness bites into my relationship time with my dear and I am very sad about it as well. As much as I want to be by her side from sun rise until moon rise, I simply cannot afford. My sleepiness usual comes so hard on me, I would just stone until I sleep.

Well I love her with all my heart and soul and I would want her to know that even if I am too tired to listen to her gentle voice, to tired to feel her touch of love. My love for her will never change! Because it is not build by the world, BUT BY THE HANDS OF GOD! AMEN! AND OUR GOD HAVE NO CAPACITY TO LIE! HE IS FAITHFUL AND WILL SEE US THROUGH! AMEN!

Well... Today I had dim sum with Amos and Peggy my usual buddies. I enjoyed my time and I would love to do that as much as time allow us to. It had been a month since the three of us had something like that. Well and I heard that Amos is upset with me because, I seems to be too busy for him and our relationship is not as strong as before. Well I guess I was really too busy for anything but I would change that! I want to be free for everyone cause, everything done for man, to man, with man is edify to the glory of God! Amen...

Nothing much to say le... Feeling very tired... I Love you Ah Pa, Dear, Peggy, Amos! May you have a nice rest! Shalom...

Luke Zachary...

Busy day...

Today was not very good, I slept late in the morning. Missed one lesson but manage to reach on time for the second lecture. Well my day went quite bizarre, well I guess things could be very simple but I tend to micro-manage and get stress up by every single thing... Ha ha...

But it when quite well after that, Uncle Dauglas came to share with us about evangelism. The brought out a point that "If Jesus whom we claim Him to be, is more unique than any one on earth. He had a unique birth, unique life, unique death and a unique resurrection. For He a our saviour and a Son of the Almighty God.

"and behold, a voice from heaven said, "This is my beloved Son,* with whom I am well pleased." Matthew 3:17

Now after knowing Jesus Christ, die for us... All of us. Are we going to keep this good news amount people? Are we going to keep this knowledge of Christ to ourselve? Is it not that Christ came to save all and not a few?

"The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost. " 1 Timothy 1:15

Amen...

After that I had dinner with my CFers and guess what? Three new faces came! Praise the Lord! then I rush down to Cathay to watch Jeremy's performance with Amos, Peggy, my dear, Dawn, Eugene and his dear (Emily) at Ben and Jerey. The ice-cream was good... Ha ha... After that I sent my dear home...

Well along the trip i was very tired cause I had a long day, when I am tired I tend get grumpy and easily getting hot temper. I am sorry dear, I did not meant to. I was just tired and can't really think of what to say and what words should I use. I am sorry...

Well... I guess I am quite tired easily because of the workload I am carrying... But I guess I should find rest in Him so that I can be a better steward for God.

"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

Thank you Father that you have shared with me today,
Lord I ask that would you give me enough rest...
Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

First day of School...

Yesterday I had a wonderful Sunday with my Father. The Vine Church in Hong Kong came down to my church (Charis). Their brought down our band (Vine Band) together as well, the service was good and I will post a sermonette on my sermonette post really soon (once I find time). The service ended quiet late but I manage to get to my work area on time (Airport). I went to have brunch and bought dinner because I would be working at T3 and the terminal have really expensive food. To my joy or horror, which I am still confuse. I realised that I do not have to work! There were some miscommunication, so I took the chance and went down to Ngee Ann Polytechnic to meet my dear since she would be there doing the decoration before Monday because of the CCA drive. So I spent the evening and night with her and the rest of the CFers...

Today I woke as slightly later then the time I wanted to. But it's ok, I reached 5mins later then suppose to( Not too late). I spent my day adjusting back to school life and I really want to work hard for this coming year... then I ended at 3pm and headed to CF room to relax and wait for Eugene to come at 5pm to fix my wife(Guitar) and Eliza to prepare worship songs for Tuesday. Then Nicodemus, Michelle, Ian and my dear came to Singapore Polytechnic to have dinner... After dinner, Addison who came along the way, sent dear home since he is driving. And I took a train with the rest except Michelle who took a bus back. Once I reach home, I have been doing admin (which I hate most) and manage to finish them.

I am currently having headache and telling my dear would mean a scolding for her. Well she is sleeping now and I feel a need to have her close to me... But having her sleeping would means that she would have more rest and that would be what I want from her as well.
I love you Dear...

My head hurts really bad, could be the lack of rest or even pressure that my ministry is giving. But I hope that God would help it right now... ha ha... I can't type and think anymore... I shall end it here...

"Heal me, O Lord , and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved, for you are my praise. " Jeremiah 17:14

Thank you Lord for today. Thank you Lord for tomorrow. Thank you Lord for Katherine

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

A summary of four days...

Its been awhile ever since I wanted to write this blog. Everyday has been a fruitful day and I thank God for it. Praise You Lord.


7th April 2008 (Monday)
My last post was talking about making brunch for my dear? Today is the day. I plan to wake up at 6am so that I would finished the cooking, cleaning up, bathing and everything else by 8am then I would reach below her house to suprise her. But as usual, I slept late in the morning. I woke up at 7 instead, well but I did manage to finish early and reach parkway about 10.30am and guess what? She been herself was late.. Ha ha... But its worth the wait. ;)

So we reach East Coast park about 11plus. We spent 4 hours there, well... we slept under the sun, ate brunch, sing along with the music ( I brought along my psp and speaker) and wet ourselve (We were playing with the sea water la! What you thinking!). The breeze was really relaxing and I really hope that I can spent the rest of life next to the beach. Well, what more can I ask for? The sun, the breeze, the sound of waves crashing and my beauty holding me.
God is Great.

"For you bless the righteous, O Lord ; you cover him with favor as with a shield." Psalm 5:12

After East Coast, we headed down to Parkway Parade to read some books (to catch the air-con too). Then went down to meet Ian and Amos for dinner, followed by bible studies with the rest of the leaders. Guess what? My dear was burning! Her face and arms, hands and legs were all burning red. It was quite scary... It was pretty much my fault, I should have brought sun-block and skin protection for her. I am sorry... But we did had a wonderful day! Thank You Lord...


8th April 2008 (Tuesday)
After my fantastic yesterday, I had lunch with Amos and Ian. Well it started slow and quiet but once we sat down for a talks after lunch, they went straight into the main topic. I do feel a sense of distance from my CFers, Amos, Peggy, Ian and so on... They were telling me why is it so, then I share with them everything. But after the long conversation, i sense that it has went back to the old stage of closest of everything. Thank You Father.

"Settle matters quickly with your adversary who is taking you to court. Do it while you are still with him on the way, or he may hand you over to the judge, and the judge may hand you over to the officer, and you may be thrown into prison." Matthew 5:25

Then Amos follow me to the Ngee Ann Polytechnic to have dinner with Peggy and my dear. But when we reach there, Peggy says that they need more time to finish up the camp stuff. Amos could not wait any longer, so I ate together with him and walk with him to his bus stop before I head back to Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Not long after they arrived together with their Exco members about ten of them at that particular time. We went to King Albert Park to have dinner at McDonald. Have a few chats and walk her to the bus stop when Peggy ran after the bus like a auntie... Ha ha... then talk to my dear on the phone all the way back and then accompany each other on the phone throughout the night for the two of us to finish our admin for both Christian Fellowship. Well I was quite surly and I thank God for the understanding and thoughtfulness of my dear.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self‑seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails..." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

9th April 2008 (Wednesday)
I woke up and rush down to school to do my timetable. I reach around 9.15am... But the queue was very long! I was the 53th in the queue... Just 15mins only! But I in the end, I spent the rest of my afternoon there as well. I finish everything at about 3pm, can you imagine the tirness and stress I have to go through? Ha ha... Thank You Father as it is finished. Then I reach home to cook dinner and that is my first and only meal for the day.

Then I went to meet Mun Toh (my mentor) for HTHT (Heart To Heart Talk). We talk about all aspect of my life. I enjoyed the talk very much. Then I went to FES (Fellowship of Evangelical Student) office to place some things and take a new copy of the NLT (New Living Transition) life application bible for a new creation of God... Lim Chen You

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"
2 Corinthians 5:17

And I went home to lie on my bed for awhile but I slept until this afternoon at 2pm. Ha ha... What a Pig...

But even these few days have been busy for me. I will still find rest in the Lord Jesus Christ...

I thank You Father for watching me through these days. Lord if I do not remember to thank You, remind me to do so. So that I would not take Your blessing for granted. Lord I ask that would Your Spirit live in me that I no longer live for myself but in Christ for Christ and through Christ shall I be living for. Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

He gives and takes away...

I had a wonderful night on 6th of April... I had dinner at KFC with my dear's mom! How funny is that? Haha.. She is really a nice person and I suggested that We (as in my dear and I) should spend more time with her mom.
Well.. I guess many a times in relationship, people just want it to be a "couple world" thing. Only the "boy and the girl" and shut the whole world off. I truly believe that is not the case, my stands are if I truly love her, then I should love those who love her too right? And let her spent more time to those who needs her more. Many people have a mindset that love is SELFISH!

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self‑seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Well... This is the true LOVE that I believe and the world that is trying to corrupt it.

Anyway... After dinner, we walked her mom to the control station and we then took a bus to head down to West Coast to enjoy some breeze from the sea. Then along the way I start talking about if Ah Pa ever take my life before I marry her, I would hope that she would find someone else who can look after her and stuff. Well things got just little bit depress, then I told her if that even happens then I would want her to say this... "He gives and takes away, but my heart still choose to say 'Blessed be Your Name'".

"And he said, “Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”" Job 1:21

This is my life, I was created for Him, in Him and through Him, whatever may comes, I am at His full disposal. So that I may be a testimony to Him and my deeds be a glorifying before His throne of Grace and Glory. For it is by Grace I came to know Him and for His Glory I may die to live with Him...

"For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21

So I told my dear that in my funeral, one of the song must be "Blessed be Your Name" Haha...

After everything, I send her near her house where I took bus after that and reach home, bathe and went down to buy some stuff so I can make brunch for her tomorrow, erm.. more like in a few hours time. Well I really love her and I promise to cook for her all the days of my life. As long as my hands are still working... I will cook!

Its really a interesting day... And I could not wait to see her in a few hours time!
Thank you LORD!

I ask Lord Father that You would give me the strength to go through today, I ask that would Your Spirit lead me in all ways of my life which is no longer mine for You have bought me for a price. A price that You have not hold back because of Your love for us, Abba Father I ask that I will be able to love Your people as the way You delight me to love. And above everything, I thank You for Katherine. The lover You place in my life so that through her, I can see the image of Christ in a physical world. Thank You Lord... I ask that Your will done on earth as it is in heavens. Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

The true leader (that i am not)

I have been taking a long time thinking... Am i the right leader for Christian Fellowship? Did they choose me due to the lack of members?
Well... I have many other commitments and becoming a Chairman for English Ministry only adds on to it. I guess that the reason for my doubts is that I feel that I am not caring enough for my members well being, they are my sheeps and the lest I could do for them is to keep track of their everyday life! I been asking myself, if I have even spent a few minutes praying for them? Did I even spend time having lunch or tea with them? If they are truly my sheeps as I have called them. Then why am I not caring enough for them?

"I will set shepherds over them who will care for them, and they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall any be missing, declares the Lord . " Jeremiah 23:4

I ask Lord let me be the shepherd, let me care for them so they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall any be missing. Lead me Lord, teach me Lord. For You are the True Shepherd, show me Your ways and I will follow... Amen...

One more week before school starts... I know it will not be easy, but by Faith and not by sight. I will follow the Lord of my life...


For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary