A shining star, in the mist of stars

Dear Blog,

I write to you as a man looking for what cannot be found. The men whom I entrusted failed me, long have I have walked with them, journey with them, fought with them and eat with them. Long have I looked for leaders who will commit their life to the commandments of the Lord. In times of peace and rest, they prove worthy. But in times of help and need, their rescued was slowed and reluctanted.

My enemies laughed and mocked me. Their words are like a thousand arrows piercing me, and I am as one who was being sent to be slaughtered. Their tongues are evil, their language are venomous.

As I seek the counsel of my Lord, I cried out

"My God, my God, where are the leaders that You appointed? Where are the leaders that You anointed? To whom may I seek? To whom may I trust?"

I am despair, for my livning leaders are as good as those who are dead.
My spirit is downcast.

And there before me, were a shining star, in mist of dead stars. Her name was pledge, pledge to the God Almighty. She was with me at the start of my birth, and through my journey of life, she was there. Yet I took no notice of her in the mist of confusion, belittle her, I did.

But she rised up to the called of my distressed, even if I do not notice. She stand firm in her actions and leadership. She rised above all my leaders, for her heart is for the people and her mind is of God.

Let her youth not be taken lightly, for it is written:

“I am young in years,and you are aged;therefore I was timid and afraidto declare my opinion to you.
“I said, ‘Let days speak,and many years teach wisdom.’
“But it is the spirit in man,the breath of the Almighty, that makes him understand.
“It is not the old who are wise,nor the aged who understand what is right."
~Job 32:6 - 8

I am proud of her, like a father to a child.
She has mature in spirituality and understanding in the glory of our Father in heaven.
I found my strength once more, my spirit is renew like a fresh water that burst from the ground.
And I raised my voice to praise His name! In His glory may I dwell...

Then enemies have fled, without a trace, without a trail.
The victory is mine once more...
To the glory of the risen King!

Abba Father, I thank You for leaders in Christian Fellowship. Both true leaders and acting leaders. Lord, I ask in many ways that would You pour down Your blessing upon them. Lord let them dwell in Your mercy and grace. May Your love be upon them this day until You call them home... And Lord I thank You for the leader whom have Your heart, even in her studies and work by You pour down Your double portion of blessing and gifts. I pray Lord that she would commit herself in Your perfect hands, just as the name says "a vow in God". So Lord bless all leaders in Christian Fellowship. In Your name I ask... AMEN...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Trusting, Believing and Knowing

Dear Blog,

I write to you at this moment in the mist of War that is raging in my heart. Surrounded by my vicious enemies, the thunderous sound of their foot steps, the loud and mighty clanks on their shield and the powerful battle cry that comes out from their mouth!

"Where is your people whom you trust!? Do they not fail you!?"
"Where then is your God of Salvation!? Did you not fail Him!?"

My heart was filled with pained, my body ached. My eyes were tired from the tears that flowed like a river from endless nights. My lips are dried and painful cracks are found on them. My spirit is weak and My soul is diminished.

For I was lost and my hope was nowhere found. The taste of victory I have waited too long...

Then comes a lady as pure as the driven snow, her name was pure and so was her heart. The beauty of her eyes bring a fire in my heart, that was warm and comforting, I felt alive as more...

In her hands hold a book, to a chapter she shows that her Lord has commanded...

"My Refuge and My Fortress

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.

I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,my God, in whom I trust.”

For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowlerand from the deadly pestilence.

He will cover you with his pinions,and under his wings you will find refuge;his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.

You will not fear the terror of the night,nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness,nor the destruction that wastes at noonday.

A thousand may fall at your side,ten thousand at your right hand,but it will not come near you.

You will only look with your eyesand see the recompense of the wicked.

Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place—the Most High, who is my refuge
no evil shall be allowed to befall you,no plague come near your tent.

For he will command his angels concerning youto guard you in all your ways.

On their hands they will bear you up,lest you strike your foot against a stone.

You will tread on the lion and the adder;the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot.

“Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;I will protect him, because he knows my name.

When he calls to me, I will answer him;I will be with him in trouble;I will rescue him and honor him.

With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”
~Psalm 91

My spirit was strengthen and My soul was lifted high. I stood before the gate, looked far and wide. I am surrounded by ten thousand legions of enemies and I am only but one.

Even so, I no longer fear. For the one whom I loved and loved me have came and endanger herself in the presence of my enemies to heed my called of help. I believed and know that more are on their way to respond to my distressed.
But moreover I trust in my GOD THE ROCK OF MY SALVATION! In whom i choose abided...

I thank You Abba Father, even as for today, this may be as real as it gets. That I am constantly been drag into spiritual warfare, and many a times I lose myself. I ask Lord that would You guide me, would You close my ears if needed to, close my eyes if needed to and hold my mouth if needed to. I ask Lord even as I struggle with this, I pray that would You lighten Kat's burden. May You be gentle on her that even if the devil whom still have control of me tries to hurt her. Lord I pray, do what You must to stop me to lay a scar on her or in her. and Lord I do not know when and how to destroy the devil in me, I ask Abba Father would you help me... Help me please... I ask all these in the name of Jesus... AMEN...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary