Day 22 - 28

Dear Blog...

And to my beloved whom I am writing to,

Been so busy... Work, work and more work... Spent time with lots of people. Had musical ex-co meeting. when for SPCF, going for NPCF later. Play left 4 dead 2 with cfers in LAN shop. Watch Despicable me 2 times. Yup so this is a really sum up of these past 7 days...

I really miss you dear... cant wait any longer for you to come home... Love Love...

Abba Father... I cant wait anymore longer... Please sent her back quickly... WITH LOVE... Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Day 16 - 21

Dear Blog...

And to my beloved whom I am writing to,

I have been so busy with work and stuff that I could not make up time to write these anymore...

Day 16(FRI) - Was a stand down... So I wen over to Fuji's house to have lunch, then we watched blindside then had dinner which Muntoh came along... We fellowship, sang some songs and when home with the presence of the Lord.

Day 17(SAT) - I was told to do guard duty today... Which in turn they ask me to head down to do flying too! So I came in at 0800hrs do guard until 1400hrs, did NDP flying, wrap up and continue my guard duty from 2200hrs. Ha Ha... What a day.

Day 18(SUN) - After guard duty, I head straight for church for worship practice and service. Then after service, I head over to your mummy's place to have lunch and dinner. Reached home about 10 plus 11. Headed straight for bed...

Day 19(Mon) - Come in at 0800hrs, there was no flying so we did some maintenance work and finished about 1600hrs. I then headed for Micheal Card's concert at Bartley Christian Church. After then I was really tired but I still head for supper with them and went home to crash.

Day 20(TUE) - In time was 1800hrs, when back to 4 - 8 again to do the normal Launching and some configuration. Ended about 0300plus, then watch soccer in that PDS and headed home at 0400hrs...

Day 21(WEDS) - In time was 1700hrs, really do not want to work too long over there as my PDS IC is Master Pey. I really do not know how it will go today...

Abba Father, Thank You for the week...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...

Luke Zachary

Day 14 & 15

Dear Blog...

And to my beloved whom I am writing to,

Day 14 - Have been heading to 4 - 8 for the longest time... Felt like my master, another crew and I were the unwanted ones from 140 Squadron. Many things have happen these few days in the PDS. Master Alvin is not in the best of mood, getting scolded every day since he was here for ridiculous reason, even I felt it was personal... But nonetheless, I ate salted egg crab last night as my batch boy was promoted, Moey was late, so they fork out some money and we had a hearty dinner. But the best of all the happening was me have Oil today!

Day 15 - Oil day! Yeah... God is Good... Got hold of Denice and Mark, so today's training would focus on song and acting... Love Love baby...

I really miss you... I love You... More weight added...

Abba Father, You are always so good...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...

Luke Zachary

Day 13

Dear Blog...

And to my beloved whom I am writing to,

None much today... I was dump by the squadron to 4- 8 again but this time only a hand full of us was there, the rest was made up by the 143 squadron. Well meant a lot of my old friends there, cause we when through MTF together. Other then that... Life was pretty normal...

I reached home at 1710hrs as there was only 1 wave... I then cook a really horrible meal, I did not even finished it, will never cook Chinese egg noodle with Carbonara sauce. It taste horrendous.

Anyway,,, I love you dear... Missing you each day... feeling empty and lonely... Do come back OK? Waiting for you...

Abba Father... Thank you for the Food, Thank you for everything... Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...

Luke Zachary

Day 10, 11 and 12

Dear Blog...

And to my beloved whom I am writing to,

It been a while since I blog due to the hectic schedule and I totally do not remember how to do so until now...

Anywae... Here goes..

Day 10 (Sat) - I woke up around 0930hrs to make it to church by 1100hrs. I dragged my feet across the living room to the bathroom, I felt really tired and wanted to sleep in. The reason which I felt lonely was because my uncle was at home and I refused to stay at home only to be called upon to do house work again and again... I need a break from all these. I then dilly dally and made my way to church to only reached at 1120hrs.

I then begin practicing until 1300hrs which I was called upon by mark to join his youth event. Some Ice-cream eating and movie screening thingy.

I reached at 1400hrs and soon joined in his youth out-reach event. There was half of his church youth and half of his church targeted BB Boys. (Boys Bridget). Felt a little out of place, to be surrounded by youth that I have never met before. Played two rounds of game and then the movie started, "Facing the GIANT" (what I surprise! Ya right) its a really good show but I am afraid it might be a little to difficult for the youth to digest. But nonetheless, its a really good show, and I still teared for it... Ha ha....

Then I followed mark to that very good duck rice store to have dinner and then head over to Orchid Country Club to play pool. And I suck at it... Ha ha... Then I head home and reached about 2200hrs plus.

Day 11 (Sun) - I woke up at 0845hrs to make it to church by 1000hrs. I was so tired that I keep shifting the time forward so that I could sleep in a little more. I finally got up, pack my bag and head over to church. i reached at about 1020hrs. The sermon was on the "freedom of joy" Philippians 4: 4 - 9.

After service, I had lunch with pastor and some members, then pastor Patrick and I head over to the gym as he want to train me up physically.

It was very near Bona Vista. The facility was pretty good. It is on some building and on the top three stories. The reception area had sofa, computer with internet access, loanable DVDs, newspaper, magazine and every free flow of drinks! The second flood was all the gym equipment, machine and rooms for lesson... The last stories is a sky pool! Swim and enjoy the view of the sky... nice... I swam a little, about an hour. Then got up and lied on the bench next to the pool and felt asleep. The weather, the view, the sound of water gentle splashing on the edge of the pool. nice... Not long pastor woke me up to get change for gym, within minutes I got change and head to the gym to try out the equipment. Pastor Pat then got an instructor to coach me on how to perfect my standing board jump for IPPT. The coach called pastor Pat my dad... ha ha...

Then after gym we head over to a seafood restaurant that was near SP. It was fantastic! Great food, cheap price. Can bring you guys there too... I was there with Patrick's whole family. Means all his brother and sister where there too! It was because it is Pastor Patrick's BIRTHDAY TODAY (28 JUNE)! Felt weird. His brother say i looked like pastor Patrick and can be his God-son.. Ha ha... Anyway... I did not eat much the swimming and gym-ming had shrunk my stomach. Feeling the abs... Ha ha....

Then We head over to watch I P-man (Born of the Legend). Well... it was ooooOk... Not really fantastic compare to the first two... Maybe because Donnie Yen has a charismatic smile. Ha ha... I reach home at 2300hrs plus, I bathe and when straight to bed...

Day 12 (Mon) - Really did not want to work today. Waking up to the feeling of taking MC. Knowing I will be working at 4 - 8 I believed I would be working with Master Pey... I hate it, he never likes me... anyway... Half way on my journey Bird called, I soon found out that I was working together with him and then I asked him does he know who is the IC. He then told me was Master Alvin Chee.. Nice Guy... My day seem to have lighten up... I reached the PDS and begin my work. Due to the gym and swim, my body is still aching from shoulder to feet. Which cause me to be less alert and having high fatigue level.

I almost killed a fellow crew as I was unaware that he was still under the plane when I gave the signal to the pilot to power up. That to me was a near death experience and I would regret for the rest of my life. Master Alvin did not scold me but ask me to be more attentive to the situation around me. If it was Master Pey, I would be dead my now... But I still have the fear in me right now, remembering how it take place... But I know... I need to move on...

It really hard dear, Life without is lifeless to me... I may seems busy or whatsoever. But at the end of the day... I still need your accompany. I am not that strong without you... 24more days...

I love you too much to let you go

Abba Father... You are my strength when I am weak, You are the treasure that I seek, You are my all in all...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...

Luke Zachary

Day 8 and 9

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

Day 8 - for me was a good deal day again, as it was my 3rd Aircraft wash this week. Each day only work less than 4 hrs a day... Weee... After the wash I head over to the Aero-Medical base for my yearly hearing test... Had to travel all the way to Paya Lebar to do it which last last then 10mins... Oh wells...

I then reached home, bathe and head straight for the musical training. Ran through Act 1 to 3. Next week plan is to run through it again with the acting involvement. I then called guard post for in time and was told 0545hrs, my IC was Master Pey the idiot who wanted me to come back to sign some form during my oil...

Knowing that I soon head home and without bathing, I slept.

Day 9 - I woke up at 0455 and head for shower and left at 0515. I reached at 0550hrs. Only 5mins late but together with me was half of the crew members who were all lock outside because we are late... I know in my heart, this is going to be a long day... The rain did not stop and we stand under it for 45mins... Everyone was considering of take RSO. and giving to answer for our absent. But we did not want to make it too difficult for everyone. I soon start my day by getting scolded for everything I do until the point which I told myself that I have to swallow it down no matter how hard it was. But God was on my side, because of the rain, the first wave for cancel and we soon waiting patiently for the next wave. When it came, Ernest was told to take my plane as Pey wanted to build his confident, after that everything else was done by other junior and i soon left to do things like closing of door and signing in stuff which was soon easy. Well... I did not had a good start... but i DID HAVE A GOOD END... God is Good...

Meeting Amos for supper later... so would not be online baby... I love you...

Ah Pa... You are always good... All the time.... Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...

Luke Zachary

Day 6 and 7

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

I am having camp at 1630hrs today. Waking up to your text message, felt really tired. But I wanted to see and talk to you... Hee Hee...

Happy 27th month Anniversary! Even though we are 12hrs apart but I know our joy always remained in our heart.

And having you always "mute" the Skype makes me mad... Keep repeating my words also is not helping...

I do not want to make it any harder for the both of us... Nights...

Abba Father... Help me...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Day 5

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

I had camp today at 1000hrs. Thinking that I would head home straight at the test, but halfway through my journey to camp on train, I received a call from squadron saying that I have to head back to squadron once I am done... Totally sianed... So after the test my buddies and I hang out at Malcolm Canteen for awhile, trying to drag time so I would not have to head back to squadron so soon. After lunch, knowing that I have to face the fact, I said bye to all my buddies as some are heading over for medical check up and some heading home. I suggested to another friend (only two of us need to go back) that we should can the driver to give us a lift so that we would not have to walk. Yup and He came to pick us up. While in the journey, as he was our squadron driver, he has to pick some other that was working. And when we reach the destination, the person open the door and looked at us. He was the Warren Officer who ask us to come back to squadron to do work as there was short of man power. He looked at us as said. "Sorry, I believe so two can go home now... There has been a change of plans, do not need you two anymore..." I was overjoyed, and sianz at the same time (Cause by now I could be at AMK le). Anyway, head home to use comp and saw you online. Watch a few movies while you were asleep and now talking to you as a type this as it is morning for you over there now.. So... Conclusion, I love you still... >.<

Abba Father... I pray that would You guide Katherine this day as she head over to her new school and environment, I asked that would You protect her, watch over her and empower her for Your glory today... Amen..

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Day 4

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

I woke up at 9.30am today because I was not needed to play the guitar and so I thought I could sleep in more... Well I did... and was really late, I reached church at about 11.30am. I then invited Ron(The new young man aka youth) to do a little jamming with us. He was a fantastic guitar player... Haha... Then I went out to have lunch with Melvin, Andrew, Wei Ming and Carol at Raffles City. The Japanese Mache style restaurant. Wow, the food there is really good. Then we head over to Bugis as our dear Carol wanted to do some shopping with friends over there, we walked to bugis and soon enter the arcade to play a few games. We tried the basket ball thingy game and score 624 points where the high score was 642, we were pretty close. Haha... We then head over to Iluma to seek for LAN-Gaming. But it was too pricey and we abort the mission, I then head over to Newton to have dinner with my barker boys. Jeremiah, Tey, Loy, Zi yang, Mark, Alfred, Jerey's Girl friend and Jane. I then found out a few shocking news...

1) All have change their ride. Cars, Bikes.

2) Zi Yang broke up with Jane, Mark broke up with Geraldine and now Mark is with Jane... ???

3) Bertram (the cyclist) met an accident 2 months ago, His friends and him were doing their normal cycling when a drunken driver ran over them from the back. Bertram was then sent into intensive ward for 2 months while his friend... He did not make it... Bertram has fully recover now and waiting for the police to file a report to charge the drunken driver so that he can claim from him all that was needed.

I was shocked that I could almost lose a friend so easily...

4)Darren Chan was married a few months ago... I did not even know!

Yup I truly missed out a lot from them this pass few years... Felt really bad...

Anyway... I enjoyed myself today... Wish you were here... Love...

Abba Father... You are always here, in our lives... You are a sovereign God and our lives is in your hands, by Your Word we are given life, by Your Word we will return to you. We know where we belong Lord, in Your presence. But there are those who do not. I asked simply for Your favor and chance You would give to them to receive Your Word as our lives are short. Dear Father, use us mightily to complete Your work on earth as Your kingdom approach nearer each day... So Lord in every place that we are right now... Use us. Thank You Lord... For You are Good all the time. Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Day 3

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

It's Saturday, and instead of the usual movie marathon, I am heading to work in half an hour time. Well all thanks to the NDP (National Day Parade). Well it's day 3 and I am still missing you, I long for the times that I am able to wake up to your presence. Seeing you enjoying over there is an enjoyment to me as well. Do take care of yourself baby... I love you...

Abba Father... I thank you for everything... Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Day 2

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

Now its 1600hrs... I reach home early today as there was nothing much to do in camp. Times like these hardly comes but when it does, there was no one to go out with.

Nonetheless, I am glad that I came home just on time to chat with you on Skype, even though we are 12hrs apart but technology has made us semi-omnipresent. We are no God, our love is from God because our love is in Christ and in Him only that we are made possible of this relationship. There are no authority on earth that can separate us, except the ones who have given the authority above, Our Father Himself, to the people for His glory and His glory only.

So...

Abba Father... I thank you truly for this love. This chance and this give of relationship. It is part and puzzle of life yet you have made it so special and unique, a pleasure for all man and women. That in this love we may know you more, that in this love we may be closer to you, that in this love we may bear the fullest of Christ in our thoughts and in our being. Thank you Lord for everything... Amen

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Day 1

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

Well, seems like you should be at Tokyo Transit now. How does it feel to be there? Do remember to take nice pictures k!

I woke up a couple of time to make sure I did not miss your calls or message this morning, hearing your calls and seeing your message I know you are leaving for 5 weeks. Well today i felt 'OK', maybe reality have not hit me yet but I truly pray tis 5 weeks would pass really soon...

Waiting to hear from you Baby...

Abba Father, I pray that would you grant Katherine a safe and pleasant journey there. Protect her from all harm, may your favor be upon her always... Amen

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

2 more days before you go...

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

As I sit here and face the fact of not been able to see you off on Thursday, my heart felt cold and emptied. My eyes are tired, eager to close but I sat here even more eagerly to see my love online so that both of us can try skyping. As it is my first time tying. My head is getting heavier and I am not able to type anymore... Night Blog... For my body.. I will still wait for your coming..

Thank you Abba Father...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

4 days before you go go

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

I thank you for the wonderful weekend I had with you... Even though time flies as we are together but I enjoyed every single moment with you. I would not trade anything for you, no condos, cars, money, Xbox360, I-touch, Mac book, PsP, Games, can compare with you. If I am even a chance to choose again, I would still choose you.

We are meant for one another, now and forever more...

Abba Father, I thank You for your gift of life. I thank You for your gift of love. I thank You for your gift partner... Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

6 days before You Fly

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

As the day draws closer to an end, I realized that the days before you head to the states are getting closer too. 5 weeks is a little too long I suppose, thinking that I would be able to spend more "me time" and play XBOX360 but I soon figure out is it all incomplete without you.

Life without you is like a straw, it sucks...

Well just pop in here to say that I love you and that I hope you would remember to read my Blog every night over there yea? I will type as long as I am able to.

I love you...

Abba Father, I thank You for internet, Facebook, e-mails and blogs. That even Kat and I is 12hrs apart, we are not separated because of technology. Lord, would you keep her safe and sound this night... I love you Father...

Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

1 Week before You Fly

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

I left for camp today knowing that there was 3waves today I thinking that I would be coming home late again. But as I enter my squadron , straight into the guard post to look at my crew and the flying schedule, I then realize it was not bad after all. For my crew there was only 1 wave and it would be back by 1pm. So as I do my calculation for what time I would be home, it should be not later then 4pm. but I was wrong. It came back at 1pm, I finished my work by 3, then spent the next few hours waiting for my PDS IC to sign the forms... And now I am... HOME...

As I struggle between resting at home or going to Fuji's house, many thoughts came to my mind. All I need was a affirmation of I must go, should go or need to go. But I have none, all I got was, you may, can, feel free to come. I then give myself excuses of not going, and then I asked God for a sign! that I should go. Yup he gave me one. Knowing that I have a photo shoot tomorrow and my turn out need to be neat and good. I then intend to polish my safety boots with the liquid polisher. The cap got stuck with the brush, so I pulled a little harder and guess what? The brush came out together with the cap and the black liquid splash onto the floor. Well I told Him, "guess you didn't want me go after all" But maybe it is despite of this I would still go is the right answer for Him, I still would choose not to attend.

After hearing so much sermons of having JOY, Another Spirit and so on. I still cannot seems to apply all that I have learn into it. Maybe I am too lazy to, maybe my environment does not allow me too, maybe the sermons are not practical in times like these anymore.

Air force has taken ever joy that I have. It has taken my time, my strength, my emotion, my mind, my heart and my soul too. Maybe I am place in the worst place now in my NS. Work 6days week, even though you are flying on next Wednesday but I got duty. Saturday suppose to go out with you, but now there is SPORTS CAR duty.

But in spite of all these, I sense that I love you and need you more. And more then ever. I really do not know how to face myself when you are gone for 5 weeks... You are my everything... You are... my life...

Abba Father, I am sorry for my lack of faith. In You. Many times I am foolish and asked you to show me signs so that I may believe you are still real to me, but I yet forget your hands that was guiding me through. You love that forever shining upon me and blessing that is continuously pouring out onto my cup. Yet my heart was harden and my eyes were shut. May You continue to be by our side this day and the days ahead... Amen...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Count down to Dar Dar's USA trip

Dear Blog...

And to me beloved too whom I am writing to,

Remember yesterday when I receive a call? It was my squadron that call back because I fill it in wrongly, well... It isn't much a problem, it just been made worst by the IC. As I was calmly answering and replying to my friend who was on the line, I can clearly overhear the unpleasant background. I truly swallow even pride or dignity that I have yesterday on the phone.

There is no pride, glory or even honor in Air-force. It just a pile of deep dung for people to step in, we are required to work like regulars, but we are paid with peanuts. We are expected to work like we know everything, but when things happen we get scolding we are not worth a cent...

So much for having 'A HIGHER PURPOSE'... Ever since I am qualified, everyday I get scolding after scolding. Everyday I drag myself to work, I lost confidence, totally demoralize. The colours of my life seems to slowly fade off...

But waking up next to you, opening up my eyes to see you put back the colours of my life... You complete everything good that this world is not, you bring joy, pure joy into my life. A blessing from God that I would and could not be anymore grateful for. Thank You I can't imaging my life without you in the five weeks to come...

My next few blogs would be my blogs for you baby...

lOve...

Luke Zachary

Living in a world of my own...

Dear Blog...

Its been a year and four months since I wrote in you and in my

SERMONETTE...

Reason being that there is nothing much to write about any more. The voices of God vanished from my life, I no longer hear Him, see Him or even feel Him anymore, maybe it's my fault for not desiring Him, maybe it's my fault for not trying. But I am tired of running this senseless race, I am throwing my towel, walking away from the path He desired for me.

"Vanity of Vanities, all is Vanity"

~ Ecclesiastes 1: 2

Everything that is of this world is nothing but Vanity. I am a nobody but a passing wind, undesired, unnoticed person living in a world of his own delusion. Pretending that I make impact to someone, someday. Betraying my mind of thinking I touched and changed someone's life, but no claims, no affirmation... No remembrance, no trace of records I ever did. King of ministry? Sorry Brother, I am nothing but a passing wind. No legacy that I left behind, I am just a tool that was used and dispose by the very nature of creation.

I am leaving from my once called home...

Another reason that I do not blog. Cause no one ever care reading on them...

No prayer this time... Shalom to myself...

A really SICK dae...

Dear Blog...

Yesterday, I was feeling terrible... My whole body was aching, my head was really heavy and my breathing was straining. I was in a position that I thought I was going to die, but the thought that came to me was that if really my time is up and I am going to be called home, I would die in the arms I love. And that was what I did! I crawled for my bed to my bathroom, then from my house to KAP (King Albert Park) just to in on time to meet my beloved after her cell group. My journey there was tough. Many a time I felt that I would die on the bus, but when I reach KAP, I told myself that I am this close in seeing her, and even I use every single strength I have to climb that stairs I will. So I slowly, bit by bit, step by step make my way up the stairs and eventually sat down at a table where I could secretly look at her without her notice so that I would not disturb the cell. And I sat there for an hour.

Even siting there was hard cause I felt that breathing was difficult and my body was in pain. But I remained sited looking at her, soon one hour has pass and she called me. I told her I was at the table near her. Then I make my way towards her table, after dragging myself there, I greeted everyone there, as much as I wanted to look lively, I failed badly as my body was not helping much. Miko brought me a hot cup of Milo while asking me to look after myself. Then everyone in the cell group left and my dear and I went to cold storage to buy some medication and water for me. I actually wanted to go out as it was my off day but my dear insisted that I go home due to my fever.

My journey was a very tough one for Kat, as she tries to support me and carry my bag. She was asking why my bag was so heavy, I told her that I brought out admin stuff from camp as I cannot afford to slack even when I am sick. But soon I realised that I am in a terrible condition, and the bag that I brought in fact did nothing more then increasing the burden I am in now. I then somehow feels that I was a burden to her. But she gently hold me and make sure I am not feeling terrible in anyways. She then brought me home while I collapse on my bed.

She took a bowl of water and a towel and slowly wiping my body and forehead to cool down my temperature. Then I took medication and when back to sleep. Soon it was getting dark and I suddenly remembered that Kat has a party to go. When I asked her, she says that she cannot go to the party without worrying for me. She would rather stay to look after me. And she did...

She brought me dinner while I took a bath to cool myself down. After she came back and unpack the food, and place in front of me. I did not even eat 1/4 of it. I was feeling terrible and when back to sleep. While she cleans up and wash the bowl. I soon feel like throwing up and I rush to the toilet and throw up everything. Everything... Then my stomach start to have cramps and I was feeling terrible. As I crawl back to bed, I was gently been put back to sleep by Kat and soon she felt asleep too. I believed she was very tired as I was woken up by her snores (oops). Soon it was getting late and she has to home before her dad kill her. After opening the door for her, I went back to sleep.

Today I felt much better... ^.^ and I am going to church now before I am late... bye bye...

Abba Father, I thank You for your healing hands. But I truly thank you for the illness as well, when I see Your love through her. I sense that the fact that my illness was not the highlight of yesterday but Your love through her. I prayed Lord Father would you bless her in every ways and Lord... Make me the person who is deserving for her love Lord... As I seek Your face Lord, would you grant me peace in my heart, Father protect me today as I work... I ask that would you teach me Your ways that I may follow... Amen...

I really love you dear... I really do...

For Him, In Him & Through Him only I live...
Luke Zachary

Updates so far....

Dear Blog,

I will have a break out on the topics that I will touch on...

1) Camps

1a) PCF
1b) NC
1c) Complete

2) Love life

3) Buddies



1a) Well PCF was a little different then the way we planned... our target was 30 people... we hit less then have after included the staff worker... We did not followed the timetable, everything was free flow, even worship! Well it was pretty interesting... The theme for the camp was "Me in the Big picture"... Mun Toh first started out teaching about how God's plan befall upon us, how magnificent is His will. Then the next day was Fuji teaching how our youth life can affect or change the society into the Big picture of God. But the lesson I brought home that day was neither of the teaching... I brought home something else, I realize that leadership hurts. There would be some point in time when even as leaders there would be quarrel and even miscommunication, but how we move on from there is what it really matters. It does not matter what was the topic, who was right or wrong, or even who started it first. But to look pass it and become friends again is tough but it is tougher to forget what has happen, even though we are alright now but the incident still haunts me until now...

1b) NC was even more interesting. As it was the first time I attended a camp without any games but having theory after theory, I dozen off a couple of time cause it was a bit dry. But over all it was still not bad. Maybe some of the teaching I could not fully accept but I respect him as someone who was given the authority to teach. The lesson I could bring home was the workshop Fuji taught (Well... I could have just hear it during CF). About reaching to the I pod generation...
The only thing I could bring home from Vinoth is that "Pastor should one day go up to the pulpit and say "I have nothing else to teach to you, unless you act upon what was taught last Sunday" then going up every Sunday teaching the church things that they would not do". And not to forget, it was the first time I went up the stage, facing 300 people and reading the Word of the Lord... ^.^ It was quite an experience...

1c) Complete... Coming in 1 week time... Well the committee is trying very hard to stick everything together in this short amount of time... Well... I told Fuji to form the committee in January but it was only form about 2 months ago during exam period. As more and more waves start crashing upon us, I prayed that may Ah Pa's grace fall upon us. As I look on the target of 80 people, I start to lose faith. As as Kat has said.. if we reach... if this and if that... my faith of reaching 60 could even be a problem... But nonetheless, I place my trust onto the hands of God...

2) It is coming to our 6th anniversary, and as I know back... Did I really make the right choice? Not that she is not the one... In every way she is and only is the one I love. Is just that I feel that I rush into relationship too soon. Well, I did not know her well enough, looking pass her flaws as they haunted me now and then (Not physical of course)... And how I failed times and again to be a good, responsible boy friend. Well, I love her for the love for God which now I wonder to myself, am I taking that love for God away from her? Well she seem thinking of me more that thinking of God. and even for myself, I have lost the passion as I first started out and well I hope that she would get me back on track. But instead she followed me along. I want her to feel that all she needs is God and not me, and the more when I ask her about this, the more her reason seems a bit off... Unless our relationship brings us closer to God, I believed we have failed to be a couple in Christ. Well many times and even in her mind (I heard from her) that giving up was a choice that pops up in our head. I feel that I need some time away to really see what went wrong to start the foundation again. But that is not possible... Throughout everything and even in the end if we did not make it... I would still say loving you was the a choice I never regret and never will...
well I have to see and pray for God strength in my life, as my doors start to open, the darker side of me will show but I pray that God would pour His mercy and love over us.
Now as each day draw closer, I hope that our love will be a pleasing living sacrifice to our Lord...
I love you baby dear...

3) I always believe that long lasting good friends are hard to find... It started off with 3 of us doing everything together, hanging out very most of the time. But as time moves much faster, we fell out of it. Slowly, we hardly talk... we hardly meet.. I believe I am at fault too, but tight schedule did not give me any flexibilities to meet up, but I am more willing to say OK when they call me out. I would cancel every event just to hang out with them... But now we hardly sit down and talk, we dun even see each other once in 2 weeks. I believe time has a better hold on us, and I always believe that there is a season in everything... The season for this relationship has come to a finale. It's time to move on... No looking back... No good byes... May the Lord bless you... my beloved buddies...

Abba Father, I thank You for today... I thank You for Your mercy and love. Even as I write this feelings I have, Lord would You still let Your spirit do Your work in my life... I ask Father this day that You will take on of me and use me according to Your pleasure... In Your name I asked... Amen...